I don't really understand, but things are getting me down at the moment and I have a difficult attitude. Too many things annoy me.

This evening for almost the first time in aaaaaaaages I have watch TWO programmes on TV.
The first is an excellent series called Great British Journeys

Nicholas Crane 'discovered' Piersfield House on his way down the Wye Valley.
All very Foxxian. They should have used Cathedral Oceans for the incidental music.

Then 'Mock the Week' which still has a few original comedians left on it.

Both these programmes were spoiled at the end by VoiceOverMan crashing into the Squashed-to-one-side-of-the-Screen credits telling me what was 'up next'.
I'm easily confused. What happened to finding out what was 'up next' by lookin gin a newspaper or something. And surely if you are sitting by the TV you know what's on next anyway. You either want to see what has just been on or is on next, otherwise you wouldn't be there??

What exactly don't I understand?

My business partner has been 'helping himself' to money from our account.
I did some belated reconciliations today and found that £650 has gone to 'Trailfinders.com' this month which is a flight to Thailand at Christmas, and £550 was spent in John Lewis last month. Add to this the increasingly regular £20 - £100 'cashpoint' visits and it seems he is averaging £500 a month on top of the wages.
Why this annoys me is because I struggle to make the salary we agreed support me and Trx and all the kids and yet it's just about enough. I can't quite understand why a single bloke needs 25% as much again? It's begining to feel like he is taking the piss.
There is also an increasing irritation in the office that food items regularly go missing from the fridge or worse, from desk drawers.
"I was hungry! And there's never anything to eat here."
"It's been in the fridge for a week or so. I didn't think she wanted it."
"Have you seen the stuff she keeps in that desk?"

The point is, it's not yours! and you KNOW that.

What do I do? Get involved to defend the staff.

"You wouldn't expect a member of staff to behave like that would you, if you put something there?"
"No, of course not"
"Then why is it OK for you to do it?"
"Because I'm not staff. I'm a director. I have every right to go through their drawers and their emails and stuff. It's not the same at all"

And there is the brick wall. It will end up in a confrontation one day.

Do I ask him about this money in front of everyone?
Trx says I should, but I know it is not the right way to respond. But if I do ask, in all innocence, if he can remember what we spent £550 on in John Lewis across the office, then he will only find that awkward and embarrassing if he has a guilty conscience.

I hate all this kind of shit. We are supposed to be able to trust each other.
I came in on Monday and found that the remaining £140 left in Petty cash was gone.
"Yes, I took it. I had no money."

Why not? Where does it all go?
And you can't just STEAL it. that was for stamps, and milk, and coffee and Jo's expenses.

"Can't you just go and get some more out to replace it?"

You could go and replace it. And how do I account for it?

"There's loads of ways you could lose it in the books. do you want a coffee?"

Go on then, Yeah, why not.

(moments later, at the machine) "Shit, the water's run out. Where are the bottles?"

Next to you, there, under the post table

"Oh yeah. Cool" (rummaging noise. Door opens and he leaves the office)

Ten minutes later
Returns to office on mobile engaged in conversation.
With a half-drunk coffee from Gregg's in the other hand… just the one, of course.