Not a good day, though it has picked up since this morning.
I had a difficult night last night and hardly slept at all thinking about Tx appointment at the surgery.
I will get used to it I'm sure, bt it all seems to me now that we have rushed things a lot. Neither of us wants to talk about it and the whole thing just seems a big mistake.
But its done now, so in my prayers I am looking for some peace of mind and reassurance that all will be well in the longer term.
So now she's been "done" and we wait to see the after effects int he next few weeks. Apparently she can expect some bleeding a discomfort for a month or so, six weeks at the outside and then it's over for five years.
Is this the beginning
Or is this the end...?
Having said that, she's overdone it this afternoon and shouldn't really have come with us to the 'Crunchy Park', woodland walk, muddy puddles, adventure playground. Has retired to bed unusually early, leaving me feel vague, confused and anxious.
Hey ho...
She was also upset Corinne Lucy's CD arrived this morning and with it a two-page letter of outrageous fun and frivolity. Because she had no idea I am in regular correspondence with Northampton's rising star I suppose, and that's my own fault. I've been touting the demo songs for most of this year and have had positive feedback from one or two people, but when I heard she'd booked studio time and recorded enough material for an album I had to have a copy. It's not all that excellent actually and I felt a little disappointed on first play, but she has talent in abundance and really deserves to be heard.
Slightly crazy too, which is always a good thing.
I was under the impression she had a few copies pressed and was sending them round herself (or at least her dad/manager was) but no. The songs exist as masters, and for this CD for me - the only one of its kind in the whole wide world - she has hand drawn a comedy cover, with handwritten titles and sleevenotes etc. Its weird to see this kind of artwork these days when most people use computers for everything.
A clever move I think - another sign that the girl has something.
OK she's 19 and beautiful. Kooky too.
It's called "Small Way of Life", and she's got another session on Radio Northampton in a couple of weeks time. Thats the BBC. Go girl.
I think its just a case of bad timing that's all, with emotions raw and confused at the moment. I will decline the invitation to the gig in two weeks.
No time anyway.
Next weekend is the Office Move. After that visiting family and Alice's 8th birthday. Then Foxx in Brighton. Then the church Bazaar (and the gig). Then Numan in London.