There is a need to blog sometimes.
Weird.

I just watched an episode of The Convent, which was exactly what I needed to do.
Enlightening, challenging and provocative.
I have so much to learn about myself, my faith and my position in it all.
I have such a long way to go and feel very eager to move forward to a deeper understanding. So many of us know so little about ourselves.
We run and we hide.

It's not about religion, its about faith.
There is a massive difference.
I feel introspective this evening. Uncomfortable too.
So much to run from, so little that I know.
Sacrifice, surrender, exposure.
Letting the light shine into the darkest corners.
I feel I have made so little effort in the past couple of years to really try to get to grips with what it actually means to have discovered faith.
Have I been scared?

It was deeply moving to listen to Iona, the celibate folk-singer, belting out Amazing Grace a capella to close the programme
Its one of my favourite hymns.

I thought perhaps I should come back later and add the next thread to this online diary. But then no.
Life is often a random sequence of apparently unrelated events.
Such is mine anyway.

I am determined to see Foxx in Brighton. Not London.
Trx has booked that evening out.
Leo contacted me on Monday out of the blue, and we've arranged to meet up Monday. She is SUCH a laugh. And can't go to Scala, but wants to see Foxx in Brighton. Cool.
Today on the forum, betamag appears online for the first time, announcing that he has just done a 2 hour interview with JF at a London hotel and will be posting it online soon. This is the third online interview JF's given in the past two weeks.
I contacted him straightaway and bagged a copy for the archive, which he was more than happy to oblige. Told me exact time and place of the interview, details of the live set John and Louis are going to play and the title of the album they have just finished.
I dutifully passed this on, to find it was all news! Not even the main man knows. As he explained on the phone this afternoon - no-one tells him anything anymore.
So I have got an exclusive for us off my own bat, which feels great.
SPoke to betamag at length by email and he's keen to see the timeline and talk about JF at greater length, which he wondered if we coould do over a few beers at the gig - in Brighton! He's based there.
I am SO meant to go to that gig, not the London one.
RH also confided that he is away on a course for the next three weeks beginning Monday, so I should expect things to step up a little in his abscence and could I deal with a few bits and pieces.
Could I?
I think I can probably cope with that ...